How to stop fighting with your mind

Lakwan has a question about destroying the ego. If you can find the answer to his question you will surely wake up to your eternal nature, the source of bliss. He asked:

How are you today? You speak destroying the ego by always staying in the point that makes u feel one with god. I feel i have a deeper inner voice a wisdom like no other but when i speak i speak like kid in school. I’ve been trying to get closer and find my mission with the lord but i am stuck fighting the "i". I get excited and bam it seems like he is the life of the party and i can hear my mind in the background saying what happened to humble meekness u had a minute ago when u felt one with god.

This usually only occurs when i have lack of food for the day and i am reading something spiritual. But once i eat he's back i cant find my self constantly starving my self to keep him under. He is me but isn't me i noticed how he works and i get sick by his very nature, he begs for attention, and i don’t give it attention hard and i feel like there’s a ceasefire between my mind and ego, instead of a constant battle for freedom.

Hi Lakwan,

Thank you for your question. First you are right; you do not have to starve yourself to find God. Now I have a question for you. Which self are you anyway? Are you the I that has deep inner wisdom, or the I who’s like a kid in school, or the I who is fighting the I, or the I who wonders where the humble, meek Lakwan went to? Are you the I who starves himself, or the I who begs for attention, or the I who is disturbed by his mind?

You do not feel like many Lakwans, do you? You feel like one. The key to discovering your true nature, which is God, is to notice where you are standing. That means see what you are taking to be you. If you think there are many “I’s”, it will seem as thought one part of you is struggling with the other, like the mind with God, or the mind with the ego etc.

Notice where you stand
So when you notice a disturbance that seems to rip you away from God, also notice where you take your stand. This is the fascinating thing about Self Inquiry. Yes, you are aware of the problem that you are going though, like the boisterous mind looking for attention, but you are also aware of the character going through this problem.

Do you know what this means? The I who seems to be the life of the party, and the I who is struggling with his mind are not really you. Like any other objects that you see, you are aware of these characters. This means that you are Awareness and not any of the disparate characters that you see.

You should also know that the I attached to your good experience is not really you either. In the midst of your experience of God you didn’t stand apart from your experience to know it like an object. When the thought, “I am having a great experience,” starts to appear you may be on the verge of identifying with the limited I thought. This would be the end of your experience. But when you recognize that the thought I is just a limited thought and not your identity, you will return to your original state.

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You are Awareness, not an object
Remember, Awareness shines by its own light without the need for any other light. That means that you cannot stand apart from Awareness and see it like an object. You know Awareness because that’s what you are. Awareness is not a thought or mental state. It is the light by which you see thoughts, including those characters that you call I or ego.

So in self inquiry you don’t restrict or discipline the mind or body. It is rather a matter of not taking the impostor, I thought, to be you. It is just returning to your real home, which is Consciousness and Bliss, and resting there.

So try meditating on these words and see if you can discover the place where they point. See if this will help you to step out of your struggles and into peace. If you have more questions or need clarification please feel free to ask.

Feel free to ask questions
Please feel free to continue asking questions. I’m always glad to hear your reactions and clarify my answers. Unlike the path of faith, on the path of Self-Knowledge it is curiosity that destroys limitation and allows you to abide in your natural freedom.

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